Pete Davidson Posts Disturbing Message ... 'I Really Don't Want To Be On This Earth Anymore'
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12:15 PM PT -- TMZ has learned Ariana Grande is at the 30 Rock building to see Pete if possible. She tweeted ... "I’m downstairs and I’m not going anywhere if you need anyone or anything. I know u have everyone u need and that’s not me, but i’m here too."
She also apologized for her "dumb joke" about Kanye and Drake's beef that led to the topic of mental health when Kanye went after her. She said ... "i really didn’t mean any harm. all i want everyone to be healthy and happy. so desperately. please. my god."
Grande also deleted her previous tweets about "triggering" Kanye and commenting on mental health.
11:58 AM PT -- Pete has made numerous comments on social media in the past about suicidal thoughts to varying degrees. He has now wiped all of that clean by deleting his Instagram account. Sources close to Pete tell TMZ ... they believe his emotional turmoil has escalated recently and are very worried about him.
11:43 AM PT -- Multiple sources have told us Pete is at 'SNL' rehearsing for tonight's show. It's bizarre, but it seems like he may have posted his ominous note while he was at work or on the way in.
11:25 AM PT -- NYPD tells TMZ ... it received a flurry of calls from fans worried about Pete, so they've sent officers out to find him to do a welfare check.
Machine Gun Kelly tweeted about the situation, saying he's on a plane to see Pete to make sure he's good.
Jon Cryer also just tweeted that he heard Davidson is at 'SNL' and accounted for.
Pete Davidson just shared a troubling and cryptic message ... implying he's having suicidal thoughts.
The 'SNL' star posted the note on Instagram, saying ... "i really don't want to be on this earth anymore. i'm doing my best to stay here for you but i actually don't know how much longer i can last."
It's unclear to whom Pete's directing his words, but he adds ... "all i've ever tried to do was help people. just remember i told you so."
Davidson's message seems to be a cry for help -- just minutes before he posted it he responded to Kanye West going after his ex, Ariana Grande, by commending Ye for speaking about against mental health issues.
He said ... "I can't explain to you enough how difficult and scary it is to be honest about stuff like this."
Just 2 weeks ago, Davidson went off on online trolls for harassing and bullying him, telling them he wouldn't kill himself no matter how hard they tried to get him to. Ariana responded not long afterward, telling her fans to "be gentler" with Pete and others ... saying she cares deeply about him and his health.
As you know, it's been a turbulent year for Pete. He got engaged to Grande and then they split, and he also had to deal with a controversy on 'SNL' for making a joke about a wounded vet.
Speaking of 'SNL' ... there's an all-new episode tonight with host Matt Damon and musical guests Miley Cyrus and Mark Ronson. We did some checking, and it doesn't look like Pete was featured in any of the promos this week. It's unclear if he'll show up for work tonight.
Pete's been very open about his mental health issues recently, but it's clear now ... he needs some more help.
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Matt Damon and Ben Affleck are like brothers, so our eyebrows went north when we saw this pic of Matt hanging out with Ben's ex after a bad breakup.
Matt broke bread with Lindsay Shookus Tuesday night for an 'SNL' bash at Lattanzi Restaurant in NYC. You're looking at the 2 of them leaving, and Matt seemed to divert more smoothly than Jason Bourne ever did on screen.
By all accounts, Ben's drinking played a big role in the breakup. TMZ broke the story Ben decided he needed help and went to rehab. He's been out for a while and is now clean and sober.
Considering Matt is hosting 'SNL' this coming Saturday, it might just be a business thing that Ben and Lindsay were both at the same party -- Lindsay's a producer for the show. Matt, of course, also slayed as Brett Kavanaugh on 'SNL' this year, so they clearly have had interactions on the set.
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Pete Davidson Back in the Saddle ... Date Night with Mystery Woman
Put him in, coach -- Pete Davidson's back playing the field after the Ariana Grande breakup, and we gotta say ... dude knows how to class it up for date night.
The 'SNL' vet was spotted having dinner 1-on-1 Monday night at Carbone in NYC, with a lovely lady sitting across from him. You can see in the pic, it was full wine and dine mode.
This is one of the first times we've seen Pete out on the town with a new girl since he and Ariana split in October and called off their engagement. We're told he has been casually dating. It's also certainly a nice change of pace considering how rocky things have been for him since the breakup, privately and publicly.
Just last week, he announced Internet trolls were encouraging him to kill himself ... but vowed he'd never do any such thing. Way to bounce back, Pete.
As they say ... thank u, next.
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Pete Davidson Blasts Online Trolls ... I Won't Kill Myself
Pete Davidson's frustrations with online trolls have reached peak level ... he's putting them on blast and says no matter how many times they tell him to ... he won't kill himself.
The 'SNL' star says he just couldn't keep quiet any longer about the constant harassment he's been getting since he and Ariana Grande started dating.
He says he's been getting bullied online and in public for the last 9 months but doesn't say in what regard, and clearly it's taken a toll on him.
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His IG post comes a day after we reported Ariana had her Pete-inspired tattoo wiped from her foot. It was replaced with a tattoo that's a tribute to her ex, Mac Miller.
It also comes just days after Ariana apologized to Pete in her "Thank U, Next" music vid ... saying, "Sry I dipped."
As you know ... Ariana and Pete broke their engagement back in October. They had only been dating for a few weeks before he proposed to her.
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Alec Baldwin My Parking Arrest is a Total Joke ... At Least on 'SNL'!!!
Alec Baldwin must be feeling confident about the outcome of his attempted assault case in NYC ... 'cause he played it for laughs -- while playing President Trump -- on 'SNL.'
The opening skit was about Trump's anger over the Mueller probe and his ex-attorney Michael Cohen flipping. As Alec/Donald put it ... "God, I haven't been this upset since I flipped out over that parking space."
This was Alec's first appearance on the show since he got busted last month for trying to punch a guy who jacked his parking spot. Breaking character to poke fun at the case could be seen as a risky move.
Judges typically don't react well to that sort of thing -- however, the stakes ain't exactly high here. Alec's facing one count of attempted assault in the third degree, and one count of harassment in the second degree -- a misdemeanor and a ticket, basically.
Why not have some fun with it, right?
'SNL' also paid tribute to late President George H.W. Bush during the Weekend Update segment.
They pulled out some of Dana Carvey's best impressions of the 41st Prez -- including that memorable moment when they got the real Bush to challenge Carvey.
Read our lips ... it was funny stuff.
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Tom Brady I Probably Won't Do 'SNL' Again ... Here's Why
Tom Brady ain't going to be reprising his role as the terrible throwing dude at a carnival anytime soon -- the Pats QB says his career as a "Saturday Night Live" host is likely over.
And why? He's too damn busy.
"I'm basically on a reality TV show every Sunday afternoon for 3 hours so I feel like I'm on TV enough in the Fall and Winter."
The GOAT appeared on WEEI's "Mut & Callahan" on Monday and was asked about life outside of football -- particularly if he'd ever return to 30 Rock like he did back in 2005 when he famously played "Alan" ... a guy with an arm like Nathan Peterman.
TB12 says he loves the show ... but it's too big of a commitment and he'd rather be hanging out with Gisele and the kids.
"It's hard for my family to give that up," Brady says.
"It's hard to say, 'All right guys, well, I'm going to go off and do another week of something that I've really done before.'"
ICYMI ... the carnival sketch was Brady's best work -- but he also donned a sultan outfit and played the manager of "Falafel City" ... and had a sketch where he joked about his rivalry with Peyton Manning and other QBs.
Good times.
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Conservative talk show host Ben Shapiro says Pete Davidson's apology to Dan Crenshaw was the best political moment he's seen in years ... because it shows a level of civility that has been forgotten in America.
We got Ben Sunday at LAX, and he praised the apology skit to the skies, saying it's a shining light of how liberals and conservatives can disagree but treat each other with a level of civility.
Fact is ... it was an amazing moment on 'SNL,' with Pete apologizing and then the Congressman-elect coming at him with some hilarious jokes. Dan waded in treacherous waters by raising the super sensitive subject of Ariana Grande -- so funny.
The one controversial thing ... when Dan said rather than telling veterans, "Thank you for your service," he said people should say, "Never forget." That's a phrase that has been used to remember the Holocaust.
One thing we're guessing everyone can agree on ... Dan's comedic timing is frickin' amazing!
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Dan Crenshaw Gets Apology from Pete Davidson on 'SNL'
Pete Davidson addressed his controversy head-on last night by apologizing to Dan Crenshaw in person and on 'SNL.'
The war veteran and Republican politician appeared Weekend Update with Pete Davidson where Pete sincerely apologized to Dan, and Dan accepted, but not before giving Pete a taste of his own medicine. The icing on the cake is when Dan's phone rings, you have to hear the ringtone.
When the jokes settled, Dan used the moment to urge Americans to come together and forgive. A touching moment during these super-divisive times.
The whole sketch is a very wholesome exchange, and it just goes to show that people can work out their grievances without reaching for the pitchfork.
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Pete Davidson on 'SNL' Ariana Mention Was Last Minute 'Ad-lib'
Pete Davidson made a late change right before 'SNL' to mention Ariana Grande's name during this weekend's episode ... TMZ has learned.
Sources close to the production tell us Pete heard Ariana's new song, "thank u, next," before showtime Saturday night, and that spurred him to write a few lines addressing the breakup. We're told he ran a copy by Lorne Michaels ... and got it approved for his 'Weekend Update' segment.
Pete called Ariana a "wonderful, strong person" and wished her the best ... while also declaring their relationship wasn't anyone's business. Remember, Pete scrubbed an entire skit he'd written about their breakup after Ariana called him out over the promo in which he obtusely referenced their split.
Clearly, he had a change of heart after hearing the tune, which she dropped just 30 minutes before 'SNL' went on the air. FWIW, she refrained from taking any shots at Pete on the track.
The Ariana line wasn't the only deviation from the script heading into Saturday. Regarding Dan Crenshaw -- whose war-caused disability Pete mocked -- we're told P.D.'s crass "whatever" comment was delivered completely off the cuff.
Our sources say the joke about Crenshaw looking like a porn movie hitman was written into the script, but Pete made matters worse by improvising those last couple lines.
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Dan Crenshaw Pete Davidson Used Me So I'm Gonna Use Him on Tuesday!!!
The war vet Pete Davidson disrespected on 'SNL' concedes there may be a silver lining ... he's now a stand-out in Tuesday's midterm election.
Texas congressional candidate Dan Crenshaw told us on "TMZ Live" ... this could turn into a Beyonce moment ... turning the 'SNL' lemons he's been given into sweet, sweet lemonade ... which could translate into a win for him when the polls close on Tuesday night.
As we reported ... Dan isn't demanding an apology after Pete said Dan looked like a "hitman from a porno" and brushed off his disability with a "whatever." Dan does admit, however, the cheap shot "tore at my core."
As for the sympathy points he's gained since the story's gone viral, Dan says he'll take them, but wants people in the 2nd congressional district of Texas to vote for him for the right reasons -- not out of outrage.
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Pete Davidson is taking all the heat for his terrible "joke" about wounded veterans ... and somehow no one is blaming it on 'SNL.'
Kenan Thompson just weighed in ... saying Pete "definitely missed the mark," adding, "it's tough when you're fishing for jokes. ..." Kenan noted his dad was a Vietnam vet. There's no mention of 'SNL' shouldering any of the blame for allowing the joke on the air.
Davidson had cracked during weekend update ... GOP congressional candidate Dan Crenshaw -- who wears an eye patch after losing an eye in Afghanistan -- looked like a hitman from a porno, adding, "I know he lost his eye in war or whatever ... whatever."
'SNL' EP Lorne Michaels gives his crew lots of leeway when it comes to creative content, but ultimately the show and presumably Standards and Practices at NBC have the power to nix a "joke" that crosses the line.
Dan Crenshaw himself told TMZ, he doesn't need an apology, but 'SNL' needs to think about how jokes about war injuries sit with our vets ... especially when they're not funny.
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Pete Davidson and 'SNL' don't owe GOP congressional candidate, Dan Crenshaw, a mea culpa for making a crack about his war-caused disability ... but SNL needs a lesson on humor.
We spoke with Dan -- who's running for an open seat in Texas' second congressional district -- and, somewhat surprisingly, he shoots down the idea that Pete and co. must issue an apology to him because they made an insensitive joke about his eyepatch.
If you missed it, Pete did a bit on 'Weekend Update' where he gave his first impressions on some of the candidates running for office in the midterms elections, most of whom were Republican. He joked Crenshaw looked like a hitman from a porno, and said of his injury ... "I know he lost his eye in war or whatever ... whatever." The remark caught tons of backlash.
One person who's not outraged is Dan, who tells us he wants society to get away from the culture of apology-demanding every time someone misspeaks.
Check out his take -- it's quite nuanced, and he's definitely taking the high road. He also has some advice on 'SNL' political comedy in general. Take note, Lorne Michaels.
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Pete Davidson made a decision ... when Ariana Grande goes high, he'll go high.
Pete addressed his breakup on 'SNL' Saturday night, and had nothing but good things to say about his ex-fiancee. He called her "a wonderful, strong person" and wished her the best.
Truth be told ... there was a small dose of hypocrisy. Pete schooled everyone that the breakup was nobody's business, yet he himself addressed it earlier in the week on stage, cracking jokes about it. And he shot a promo for 'SNL' where he obliquely referred to it.
Pete did crack a joke about moving back in with mom.
TMZ broke the story ... Ariana planned a preemptive strike in case Pete threw shade on her ... releasing her new song -- and making specific reference to him -- just 30 minutes before 'SNL' went live on TV.
Turns out ... Ariana also took the high road, and did not diss her ex. She also mentioned Mac Miller by name in the song, "Thank u, Next."
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Ariana Grande Hear New Song Released 30-Min Before 'SNL' Mentions Pete Davidson, Mac Miller
UPDATE 8:05 PM PT -- Check out the post and hear the new song.
Ariana Grande isn't going to let Pete Davidson define their relationship and breakup on "Saturday Night Live" tonight, because TMZ has learned she's releasing a song 30 minutes before 'SNL,' and his name is right there in the lyrics.
Record label sources tell TMZ, the overarching theme of the song -- titled "Thank u, next" -- is empowerment ... what she's been through in her relationships and other experiences. We're told it is not a diss track.
Our sources say she specifically names Pete, Mac and others ... but she doesn't go after Pete the way she did earlier this week after he publicly joked about their breakup. She had accused him of being a hypocrite ... pretending he wasn't into being in the spotlight yet hanging on for dear life.
We're told Ariana felt betrayed by Pete and doesn't want to take the chance that he'll talk about their breakup tonight on 'SNL' as she just sits by. As we reported ... Pete was planning on addressing it, but 86'd the idea after she made it clear they had an agreement to keep their relationship private. Nonetheless, anything could happen.
Among the lyrics, which she posted, "Got so much love ..... got so much patience ..... I've learnt from the pain ..... and turnt out amazin ..... say I've loved and I've lost ..... but that's not what I see cause look what I got ..... look what you taught me."
It goes on ... "Cause look what I found ..... ain't no need for searching and for that I say ..... thank u, next."
The song will be released at 11 PM ET.
Originally Posted 11/3/2018 6:00 PM PDT
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Pete Davidson's got bright days ahead.
The 'SNL' star headed into the weekend with an updated shade of blue -- sky blue we're thinkin'. A colorist named Aura at Sally Hershberger Salon took due credit, saying, "Had the pleasure of doing this funny guy's hair."
Ariana's ex donned a similar shade during a promo for this weekend's 'SNL' ... asking musical guest Maggie Rogers if she wanted to get married. That backfired quickly.
Breaking up with Ariana Grande ... turns you blue ... but in a good way.
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Pete Davidson joked he was "0 for 3" in a new 'SNL' promo in which he proposed to a new chick -- and now we know who the third girl is ... Larry David's daughter.
Sources tell us that Pete had proposed to Cazzie David multiple times during their two-year relationship. The exact number of times isn't clear, but we're told it was definitely more than once. Our sources say Cazzie rejected his offer each time.
They split in May before Pete got with, and eventually proposed to, Ariana Grande. As you know, the rest is history.
As we reported ... Ariana took some shots at Pete in since-deleted tweets, saying, "for somebody who claims to hate relevancy u sure love clinging to it huh. thank u, next."
Sources close to the former couple tell us Ariana felt betrayed by Pete's remarks, because they'd both agreed to not talk about their split in public. We're told Pete's now scrapping any further references to their breakup for this weekend's show, and Lorne Michaels signed off.
There was speculation as to who Pete was referencing when he dropped the "0 for 3" line, because he's dated a handful of chicks over the years, including "Girl Code" star Carly Aquilino -- whom he dated before Cazzie.
But, we've been assured ... that third chick is absolutely Cazzie, who's since scrubbed her IG of any Pete references. Seems to be a pattern with his exes.