Liam Payne 'Severe' Suicidal Thoughts ... Pills, Booze In His 1D Days
Liam Payne says he was going through an addiction hell while he was a member of One Direction, and he's also opening up about suicidal thoughts.
The singer was on Steven Bartlett's "Diary of a CEO" podcast when he said there was a time while the band was on tour that he was heavy into alcohol and prescription drugs.
He points to pictures of himself on a boat where he looks bloated ... calling it his "pills and booze phase." Liam added, "My face was 10 times bigger than it is now. The problem was, the best way to secure us was to lock us in a room, and what is in the room? A minibar."
Liam said that environment quickly lent itself to throwing a huge party for 1 "that seemed to carry on for years." When asked if the drinking and drugging led to suicidal ideation, Liam admitted ... "Yeah. There is definitely some stuff I have never spoken about to do with it. It was really, really severe."
Liam was 16 when he joined One Direction ... which became the biggest boyband in the world after their 2010 launch on "The X Factor." They split up in 2015.
As we reported, Liam also told Bartlett he and model Maya Henry ended their 10-month engagement. But, it wasn't all bad news, as Liam revealed he's now 1 month sober.
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Halsey Buys Liam Payne's House ... For a Cool $10M
Halsey is the new owner of a zen paradise, after scooping up Liam Payne's oasis in Calabasas.
The "You should be sad" singer certainly has reason to be happy after dropping $10,161,150 for the former 1D singer's 5-bedroom, 6-bathroom crib tucked away in the hills above Malibu.
The 9,659 square-foot home is perfect for entertaining, with a home theater, beautiful backyard and wine cellar. It's also got a giant library for quiet nights at home.
The pool looks like it was plucked right out of a 5-star resort, with a koi pond, waterfalls and tons of surrounding gardens.
There's also a massage/meditation house, recording studio, pool house with a full gym and guest room. And, this is on TOP of an additional private guest house.
Jonah Wilson of Hilton & Hyland and Tomer Fridman of Compass repped Liam while Josh Myler at The Agency repped Halsey.
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Liam Payne Harry Styles Looked Great in a Dress ... So Let Him Be!!!

Harry Styles and Liam Payne may not be together professionally anymore, but on a personal level Liam clearly has Harry's back, applauding him for his fashion choice that triggered some really unfair criticism.
Harry was getting dragged for wearing a dress for a Vogue photoshoot. Candace Owens and some others went after him for his fashion choice ... Owens saying he wasn't manly enough to grace the cover. Yeah, she said that.
Liam says people need to get off Harry's back, saying, "I thought it was great. I think he's enjoying himself and he's free to do as he wishes."
Payne told Capital FM's Roman Kemp ... 2020 certainly isn't the year for people to get upset over what celebs are wearing -- as he says, there are much bigger things happening. Payne also painted Harry as an authentic guy whose success hasn't changed him.
As for Candice Owens' judgment .. Styles had an epic clap-back, posting a photo of himself eating a banana in a blue dress with the caption, "bring back manly men."
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Gigi Hadid Looking Angelic in Pregnancy Pics!!!
Gigi Hadid just posted some new pregnancy pics ... and she's definitely got angel vibes.
The model took to Instagram Wednesday morning and posted several pics of her growing belly. The black and white photos look pretty glamorous and she looks pretty damn proud ... and it's easy to see why.
In one of her posts Gigi simply captioned it, "Growing an angel :)" She also posted a series of photos with the date July 26 ... probably the date she shot those pics. In another post, she cradled her belly and captioned it, "Cherishing this time. Appreciate all the love & well wishes. Will never forget creating these special images with my friends @luigiandiango @gabriellak_j @erinparsonsmakeup thank you. I love you!"
TMZ broke the story ... Gigi and her on-again, off-again, on-again BF, Zayn Malik were pregnant with a baby girl. At the time, Gigi was around 20 weeks pregnant and in the days that followed they kept dropping hints about the big baby news without outright saying so.
It's hard to hide this bundle of joy now.
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Harry Styles Fans Target Candle with His Scent ... Sold Out Everywhere!!!
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Harry Styles admirers have gone wicky, wicky wild for a Target candle that supposedly smells like the singer ... and now it's harder to get your hands on than toilet paper.
Here's the deal ... die-hard Harry fans know the One Direction star wears Tom Ford's Tobacco Vanille fragrance to enhance his natural aroma.
Well, somehow these fans also discovered the Cashmere Vanilla candle made by Target's Threshold brand smells almost exactly like the Tom Ford cologne ... and they want it more than a watermelon sugar high.
So, there's been a mad dash by Stylers to buy up the candle ... and now it's totally sold out online and is almost impossible to find on shelves in the physical stores too.
We're told Threshold is working to produce more of the candle with the Harry-esque scent, but there's no timetable for when they'll be back in stock.
Tough break for fans struggling financially right now, because the Target candle is much cheaper than the Tom Ford fragrance. A 6-oz candle goes for just $6.99 ... whereas a 1.7-oz bottle of Tobacco Vanille is $240.
That's the price ya gotta pay to get a whiff of Harry, though. Take it or leave it.
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Harry Styles Melons and Models ... Life's Sweet as Sugar!!!
Here's Harry Styles frolicking with sexy bikini models on a beach in Malibu for a music video shoot, and he can't keep his hands off ... the props.
We know what you're thinking, but it's all good, clean fun. Harry's shooting the vid for his new single, "Watermelon Sugar" ... so, naturally there are plenty of melons on set.
Harry sure looks like he's having the time of his life. Most likely because he's surrounded by waves and babes, and looking fly in a yellow Hawaiian shirt and matching trunks.
Not to worry ... no melons were harmed in the making of the video. Harry's got extremely soft hands. Well, that's what we imagine, anyway. Like you don't?!?

As we reported ... Harry debuted his new album, "Fine Line," last month during a show at The Forum in Inglewood, CA and his fans freaked out. "Watermelon Sugar" is one of the new tracks from that record.
His fans have a sweet tooth, and so does Harry. Check out the gallery if ya don't believe us!!!
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Liam Payne Dancing & Groovin' to Michael Jackson Before Bar Bouncer Tussle
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Liam Payne was one with Michael Jackson before he allegedly got manhandled by a bouncer at a Texas bar ... which is a shame, 'cause he was killin' it on the dance floor.
The former One Direction singer proved just how much of a showman he really is Friday night at the Silver Fox in San Antonio -- where he and his 19-year-old Instagram model girlfriend, Maya Henry, were out having a good time before things turned ugly with the staff.
Eyewitnesses tell us it was piano night at the joint, and at one point ... MJ's "Billie Jean" came on, and Liam didn't hesitate to get up and bust a move. He did a bit more than that, though, as you can see here in video we got of him doing his best Michael.
He moonwalks, spins and even does the freakin' splits all with relative ease -- dude's a natural-born performer, obviously. Looks like he was content with his performance too.
Unfortunately, the night went south soon after that.

TMZ broke the story ... Liam appeared to get into an altercation outside with at least one of the bouncers, who wasn't letting him in. In the clip, Liam implies he was pushed by one of them -- and it looks like his shirt confirms that too. It was covered in dirt.
At first, we were told this might have had something to do with his underage GF, but we've now been told differently. Witnesses say Liam had gone in and out of the bar several times that night for smoke breaks and such -- but his last attempt to reenter got halted.
We're told the bouncers asked him for ID -- Liam's 26 years old, BTW -- and he apparently became upset with the request, seeing how he'd already been there for a while.
The rest, as you know, is history ... hopefully one that he and everyone else can forget about.
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Liam Payne Faces Off with Texas Bar Bouncers ... After Alleged Push
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Liam Payne got into a shouting match with some bouncers who were NOT down to let him and his underage girlfriend into a bar ... and, allegedly, things got physical.
The former One Direction singer was in San Antonio Friday night with his Instagram model GF, Maya Henry -- who's reportedly only 19 years old. As you can see in this video, things got a little feisty when they ended up at a bar called the Silver Fox.
Witnesses tell us Liam and Maya were able to get in at first -- having been recognized by others -- but later came this dust-up with security. In this clip, you see Liam -- who's wearing a white shirt with a bunch of dirt on his back -- trying to come face-to-face with a bouncer, or possibly several. He's being held back, and at one point you hear him say, "Don't f***ing push me again. I swear to God I'll lay your ass out."
Witnesses tell us Liam was, in fact, pushed to the ground -- hence the dirt on his back -- after he and Maya left and tried to reenter the bar. We're told security stopped them because of Maya's age, and when Liam tried forcing his way in ... he allegedly got shoved to the ground and followed up with this.
Eventually, we're told Liam and co. decided to leave on their own. Police were not called.
He took to Instagram to claim he'd been "jumped" by three of the bouncers there, tagging the establishment and threatening to take them to court. He's since deleted that post.
BTW, Maya's from the San Antonio area, so it looks like Liam was in town celebrating Thanksgiving with her.
We've reached out to both parties, including Liam's team ... so far, no word back.
Fun fact: Maya's family is kind of a big deal in San Antonio. Her dad is personal injury attorney Thomas J. Henry, who hired Pitbull and Nick Jonas to perform at Maya's quinceanera!!
Soooo, pretty sure Liam knows where to find a lawyer if his neck's feeling a little stiff after scrapping with the bouncers.
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Stevie Nicks Harry Styles Was in 'NYSNC, Right??? Slip-Up On Her Big Night
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Stevie Nicks just got inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame for a second time ... but that doesn't mean she's an expert on music history.
We got this funny video of Stevie after Friday night's induction ceremony at the Barclays Center in New York ... and she mistakenly refers to her good friend Harry Styles as a former member of 'NSYNC. Oops.
It was just a slip of the tongue though ... as the crowd laughs and groans, Stevie immediately recognizes her mistake. She jokes she's "never gonna live that one down" and finally gets it right ... Harry's in One Direction.
Making the innocent faux pas even funnier ... Harry was the one who introduced Stevie on stage earlier in the evening, listing off her accomplishments and calling her his idol.
It's okay, Stevie ... everyone makes mistakes. We still love you!!!
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Harry Styles My Face is Fit to Be Tatted on Singer's Cheek
This is NOT what they mean by turn the other cheek -- but a New Zealand-born singer couldn't pass on getting Harry Styles all over her face.
Singer Kelsy Karter carved out some serious real estate on her cheek for an in-your-face tattoo of the former One Direction singer's pretty mug. The 26-year-old called it a birthday gift for Harry, who turns 25 on Friday. Thing is ... it's unclear if she actually knows Harry but one thing's for damn sure -- she's hell-bent on working with him.
The New Zealand singer -- who has dubbed herself the musical female version of Harry -- once reportedly said, "Mark my words: I'm getting a song on his album."
She's so obsessed with Harry, her first post on IG is a video of him performing onstage ... and she just released a song entitled, "Harry."
Kelsy got the ink work done in L.A. over the weekend and posted the results with the caption, "Mama, look what I made me do." An L.A. artist named Romeo Lacoste did the honors, but c'mon ... Harry's better looking than that!
Tongue in cheek? Maybe, but definitely ink on cheek.
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The Chainsmokers' Andrew Taggart Mistaken for Liam Payne But Hilariously Plays Along!!!

Andrew Taggart of The Chainsmokers never again has to wonder what it's like to walk in Liam Payne's shoes ... he got a very funny glimpse of the 1D life, and thankfully cameras were rolling.
Andrew was outside Craig's Wednesday night in WeHo and posed for selfies with several fans who were apparently under the impression he's the guy who used to be in One Direction.
Paps played along, too ... peppering Andrew with questions like, when's 1D getting back together?! But, you gotta see how he got his partner, Alex Pall, in the game.
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Liam Payne Turns On Rita Ora, Radio DJs ... With 'Fifty Shades of Grey'
Liam Payne's voice doesn't just turn on Rita Ora ... he left at least 3 dudes speechless with his seductive reading of "Fifty Shades of Grey."
Liam and Rita were guests Wednesday on London's KISS radio. The two recorded a single together called "For You" for the new 'Fifty Shades' flick, so the radio DJ's asked him to read an excerpt from the book.
Liam didn't just do it, he slayed to the point where if the solo thing doesn't pan out, there's no doubt the 1Der's got a career reading books on tape.
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Harry Styles Stepfather Dead After Cancer Battle
Harry Styles' stepfather has passed away after battling cancer.
Robin Twist died earlier this week from cancer, according to Harry's reps. He married Harry's mother, Anne Cox, in 2013 where Harry served as best man.
Robin helped raise Harry and his sister, Gemma, through their teenage years, including through Harry's time on "The X Factor" ... which launched his and the rest of One Direction's career.
Robin leaves behind Harry's family as well as 2 other kids from another marriage.
He was 57. RIP.
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Louis Tomlinson Will NOT Be Criminally Charged In LAX Paparazzi Fight
Louis Tomlinson will NOT be charged with criminal battery in connection with an airport scuffle last month ... TMZ has learned.
The One Direction singer will go to the L.A. City Attorney's Office for an informal hearing, where both sides are invited to present their version of events and a hearing officer will advise the parties how they should conduct themselves in the future ... but no criminal charges will be filed.
TMZ broke the story ... Louis was arrested after a photog and a woman claimed Louis struck them in baggage claim. The photog and woman made a citizen's arrest.
Our sources say since the incident several LAX employees came forward and told authorities Louis never intentionally struck the photog or woman. And the employees said the woman was attacking Louis' girlfriend at the time he confronted her.
The City Attorney's Office hearing will be held at the end of this month.

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Louis Tomlinson He Punched Me, a Girl, in the Face ... Alleged Victim Claims

Louis Tomlinson did more than scrap with a paparazzo -- he also slugged the female witness square in the eye ... according to her.
Ana Becerra gave her side of the airport brawl, claiming she became a victim when Louis' gf went on the attack. She claims Louis jumped in to break things up, and she was shocked when he popped her in the face.
Becerra showed her injuries, allegedly from the fight and says she's planning to sue based on one simple principle -- men shouldn't hit women.
We broke the story ... Louis got into it with a paparazzo who was shooting the 1Der's gf, and then fought off Becerra -- who admits she too was shooting video with her phone.
Louis was arrested for battery and his case is in the hands of the L.A. City Attorney.

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Louis Tomlinson Battery Case Sent to Prosecutors

Louis Tomlinson's fate in the battery investigation now rests with the L.A. City Attorney.
We've learned cops sent the case file to the prosecutor's office Tuesday, and the City Attorney will now review it for possible criminal prosecution.
As we reported, Louis allegedly attacked a paparazzo Friday night at LAX after the singer claimed the pap was harassing his girlfriend. A woman on the scene also claims Louis attacked her.
The City Attorney could file 2 separate misdemeanor batteries, each of which carries a maximum 6-month sentence.

People familiar with the case file say there's a complication with prosecuting Louis. The photog -- Karl Larsen -- was interviewed by Howard Stern a few years back and gloated about his confrontation with Mel Gibson, boasting his plan was to berate Gibson into going nuclear. The video of the incident doesn't show what happened before the confrontation, and the Stern interview could turn the jury.
The strong likelihood ... there will be an informal hearing in the City Attorney's Office where Louis will promise not to do it again. He could be ordered to take a few anger management classes, but that would probably be it.
