Billie Eilish Says She Started Watching Porn at 11, Calls it 'Disgrace'
Billie Eilish I Started Watching Porn at 11 ... And It Hurt My Sex Life
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Billie Eilish says she consumed so much porn as a kid, it gave her nightmares ... and the mental effects of the addiction have now hurt her in her adult love life.
The 19-year-old singer spilled the beans Monday on SiriusXM’s "The Howard Stern Show," sharing her experience with violent porn and its impact on her life, "I think it really destroyed my brain and I feel incredibly devastated that I was exposed to so much porn.”
Billie clearly hates it now, "I think porn is a disgrace. I used to watch a lot of porn, to be honest. I started watching porn when I was like 11.”
She says that watching the "abusive" porn not only caused her to have trouble in the bedroom once she began having sex ... but she also believes watching it caused her to have sleep paralysis and nightmares.
She now says she is angry that porn is loved and mad at herself for thinking it was okay ... "The first few times I, you know, had sex, I was not saying no to things that were not good. It was because I thought that’s what I was supposed to be attracted to.”
As far as her love life, she says it has been hard, being a celeb and finding love. Saying that people are either "terrified of you or think that you’re out of their league.”
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While she admits to thinking last year she'd be single for the rest of her life, she says she got over that thought pretty fast.
Though the 19-year-old may have had trouble with her love life, her music career has had a pretty good year.
This past weekend she hosted 'SNL' for the first time, and this past summer, her album "Happier Than Ever" topped Billboard charts for weeks.